He knows the sadness in my eyes, he knows the way I break, the way I bend, the way I change.<\/p>\n

He knows that I want to hide in my bedroom slipped between blush linen sheets, not speaking, naked and warm laying still. Maybe if I lay there long enough I might disappear?<\/p>\n

He knows that in the next moment I want to run, far, far away, where I am a stranger, no one knows my name, no one knows my story….Oh how I want to run.<\/p>\n

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He sees the look in my eye when the thing that I gave my heart and soul to I no longer give any fucks about. “I’m conflicted” I say , he says with caring eyes “I know gorgeous, I know”.<\/p>\n

All or nothing. Intense and passionate. Broken or so so strong. Excited, so excited, bored so so bored. These are the months of August and September for me.<\/p>\n

When you look in the mirror what do you see? I see beauty and no beauty , curvy or fat, fresh faced or old, kindness or irritation….what does he see?<\/p>\n

He calls me gorgeous like it’s my name<\/strong>. He sees the crazy, he sees the sane, he sees it all and still chooses me. He knows me.<\/p>\n

What did I do to deserve him, or him me?<\/p>\n

He knows that some days I struggle to breathe and others I breathe life to the world. That my light is small or my light shines like a beacon to the heavens.<\/p>\n

He holds me close and listens to cries of pain, not once but over and over again.<\/p>\n

He knows me, he sees me. He breathes with me til it’s OK again.<\/p>\n

I chose him. I choose him every day. He chose me. He chooses me every day. That is the miracle. That is love.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Much Love to you all,<\/p>\n

Jazz<\/p>\n

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